Am I an NRI? The Non-Returning Indian?
Written by Pawan Kumar Sharma of NRImatters.com
I want to return to India someday. When I am done looking for what I’ve always wanted in life – wealth, lifestyle, progress and success, I would surely go back to India!
How can I ever forget where I come from? No matter how rich I become or how much luxury I enjoy, it will always make me really happy to go back to the place I was born and raised. The local village ground where I played with my friends, my one-storied rugged old school, my farm, and the narrow street lanes just next to my ancestral house that was built in red bricks.
The smell faces and the places that reminded me as I got up every early morning that this is the place where I belong. This is the space where I will always be welcome no matter where I go to live in the world or whatever I do!
“A man travels the world over in search of what he needs, and returns home to find it.” That’s the beauty of life. It made me realize that as an NRI, all my dreams, ambition and hunger to excel will eventually fizzle-out like those soft drink bubbles once I have had some luck, when someday I feel that my longing for material wealth and pleasure has ran its course!
Look at India today…..India’s great! The economy’s booming, now they have so many multi-million dollar companies, the standard of living is better; it is better connected through airways and roadways. I guess someone in that country has finally woken up to the untapped, infinite potential that a mammoth country like India has!
I just love what the country has to offer now! Global recognition in the form of being an, “IT giant”, “Bio-technology hub”, economic powerhouse and one of the finest medical tourism industry in the world! The other day I even heard that now there are more millionaires in India than any country in the world after United States and China! Phew…that’s gonna take the icing on the cake!
I mean, seriously, the amount of progress, wealth creation and economic transformation that India has had over the last 15 years have been nothing short of phenomenal! For the first time in my life, I have really felt proud of being an Indian. The other day some random guy in the US came to me and congratulated saying,”Hey buddy, I heard you guys made the world’s most economical car at what? 25, 00 bucks or something that runs 15 miles? If that’s true than why don’t you tell our guys to stop wasting millions of dollars on that stupid bio-fuel thing?”
I was spell-bound to hear this and felt like people from India do have the ability to surpass even the American technocrats when they have the desire and the fuel and opportunities that fund this desire!

You know I really feel like returning to India now! There’s no such thing in this first-world country that India does not have anymore. With world class malls, multiplexes, shopping arcades, fast food chain of restaurants, the KFC, McDonalds, Wal-Mart, Levis, Gucci, Rado and what not? As a person now habituated to foreign lifestyle and culture, I can get anything and everything I want at my fingertips! I miss so many things….my habits, my ways, my Desiness. For a father, it’s like missing out on his infant daughter growing into a teen and finally a beautiful woman ready to get married.
When I first stepped out of India to do a respectable white collar job in a foreign country, I thought I would make quick buck working really hard for a couple of years and finally return back to India to my small village life and my family. Today, I cannot recall when those couple of years ate into my whole life and I am still living in the same alien, foreign country that I never feel attached to or comfortable with- be it the culture or daily routine.
I keep asking myself the same question- will I ever go back? Here, I have wealth, better standard of living, less chaos (unlike in India), order, law, safety, life has a value. In India, I have my culture and roots, my relatives, less cost of living and education, my parents, my brother and sisters, my friends- my identity and existence!
For people like me who have settled in a foreign country for the last 20 years- there’s one recurring question and thought that we all are afraid to answer and confront- how will I start my life all over again? I left India to have a good, better life. Now I have everything I had set out to achieve but if I have to return to India today- my social existence, my friends, my relations, my lifestyle and myself will have to undergo so much transformation which might not be easy after getting accustomed to a foreign culture and lifestyle for the past 20 years of my life.
It’s a catch-22 situation and there’s no easy answer for a guy like me- a Non-Returning Indian!













